I’m so fucking angry. At everything. At everyone. For everything. And whenever I brighten up, even just a tad, I just get bitter faces and no words.
TREATING ME THAT WAY DOESNT MAKE ANY OF US FEEL ANY BETTER SO GROW THE FUCK UP AND HELP ME THROUGH THIS.
when i’m not angry, or hateful, or spiteful, I’m suicidal. There is no up, just different levels of down. I dont want to go through this ever again. I hate everything, only a little less than I hate myself. The hole I dug below myself has blinded me and I cant find any light.
Flipped a coin all night last night, and all day when I got home from work. Heads: press on, Tails: take the easy way out. 2/3 flips every time said suicide. So tempting. But I’m still here. Still going. We’ll see.
All these “cuddle and play video games” date ideas are weak. We’re playing mario kart double dash, cuddling is a distraction. Im here to win
It was just the first day back,
But fuck I wanna leave this job.
Things were going great. The sky was the limit. Now I just want out, even though there’s nowhere to go.
It’s days and nights like this that make me wanna break out the shotgun and escape it all.
But I cant and I wont. My existence isnt only for me. Just have to believe it will get better. Just have to know things will get better if I truly apply myself for change. Only I can bring the change I need. Only I can make it better.
But fuck me it’s difficult to hold the resolve I need.
I FUCKING HATE THIS GAME
you realize how much effort you make with a person when you don’t text them first for once and they never speak to you again
WHY ARE PEOPLE WITH PENISES GIVEN FREE CONDOMS WHEN THEY DON’T NEED TO HAVE SEX BUT PEOPLE WITH VAGINAS STILL HAVE TO PAY FOR THINGS LIKE PADS AND TAMPONS FOR SOMETHING THEY CAN’T STOP
The more free condoms we give now means less free condoms in the future! Probably. Maybe. Hopefully. Fuck. I really dont know.